Life...wat's life?

Hi! i'm back... well... it seems tat quite a time tat i didn't updated my blog. 1st, lazy as usual. 2nd, not enuf time, all da time seems fly away frm me. masa cemburukan saya... haih. busy wiith studies as usual, lucky tis week exam finished, bt da result dun dare to speak or even talk bout it since tis is my 1st time exam for form6. What i wanna talk bout... well i, myself also not sure wat i wanna talk about. Tis year seems lk dull... or moodless. Everything turn to black & white in my reality world. argh... sux. Wat a life to live. I'm confuse bout myself, my future, and my feelings. It seems that all of it fade away like it was taken away frm me. I'm not sure if this is the stress that i'm facing for my form 6 life or maybe study life or maybe other factor tat was affecting me. Da tension tat i'm having sumtimes are unbareable. Trying to ignore it, bt it is way too hard to ignore it coz it juz keeps coming into me like fire. Sumtimes i juz make myself busy to avoid such tension lk studying, gaming, playing guitar and all tat. I really wish to scream it out loud or throw it onto something or someone. Parents maybe? no way. Dun wanna make them wry bout it. Friends? nah... too busy on their studies. Dun make them busy over something tat was not important. It seems lk my world are fading away and away, far far away frm me. All things turn upside down, luck began to fade, colors of my life begin to turn black & white, my heart and emotions are getting empty. Oh God. wat am i gonna do bout tat. Sum ppl say tat's life and have to live with it. Bt it seems tat tis kinda thing is too hard for me to overcome it without any help. Hope i didn't get crazy over it. O.o

But still, there are still sum frenz tat are supporting me, such as Thong, Sagu, Peng, kelly and Mei li. as for my new frenz tat i knw, Jie huei, Sek wen, Shu yin, sheue Lee, Li jing, K.P Chew, Wai kit, Poh yuan, Wong, and many more. They indeed make life easier of coz. By their laughter, jokes, funs. hahaha. Bt still... something important are missing... I'm nt sure wat tat is, bt it sure makes me uncomfotable with it. Love perhaps? maybe. Studies? likely. My future? Alawys think bout tat every single second of my life, cnt even escape frm my mind. Wat's bothering me by da way... haih. life's too complicated sumtimes. I use to cheer up when ever i listen to music... bt tis time. Nothing seems to be working... wat da hell...

Maybe i'm over-stressing my self...still, i'm not sure wat i stressed bout. Man... i need a vacation... a place where i can escape frm tis 'Hell' tat's been bothering my life for da whole year. I seriously need a vacation... Can anyone tell me where to go? I sure need sum help by now. haha.....

P.S: I'm a human, with feelings, with heart tat is beating non-stop till i dead and not a robot tat feeds on oil and runs by machine...